dramastic

I think that summer has changed me. Even if it's just a little bit. A little less overthinking. I would say that it's because I don't care as much, but I still do. It's just, I've realized that I don't have to analyze every little thing. Sometimes actions don't mean anything. Sometimes they do. I can't spend my life worrying about if certain things are "a sign" or "meant to be". Ugh. I used to do that a lot. That was high school. Everything was "a sign". Everything happened for a reason. Or maybe that rule didn't apply to me. I hate when people do that. Change the rules so that they work out only in their favor. I remember that. Anything that I would say would be pushed aside because it was threatening. But, that was only one person. And I probably won't have to see them again. I'm not the same person anyway. Not about to be stepped on by someone who thinks they can control me and mould me to be their perfect sidekick. Only, it was more of a shadow. I don't like that part. I wonder if everything expires eventually, or runs out. Will waiting ruin everything? Also something I do a lot. Wait too long because it only really makes sense a little while later. Or because I want to see how long it will last on it's own. Probably not the best idea either. On a positive note, there is no more empty feeling. I was quite surprised actually. I was almost expecting it. But no, I feel fine. Not empty and sickish. That was probably what screwed me up in the first place. That emptiness. I guess it's a good thing. It was a sign in it's own little way. A bit of a warning. And.. I'm glad I listened to it.. but sometimes I wonder what would have happened if I let it completely empty out. Scary thought. I won't try that. I really should be doing something more productive:
1. Starting my space-themed costume. It'll be the best use of duct tape ever. Besides the other two costumes.
2. Mailing a certain letter....(Sorry Dakota...the post office is closed..)
3. Doing another 'armless series'
4. bwacpwmmfcasbipntbi ..

I'm not so sure that the last one would be productive.. but it could still be nice. That is all.

until later.