Slower

I feel sick. It's just a feeling I'm not used to and don't like. If the bucket was still in existence for the second purpose... it would be empty. I can't do it. It's just too simple to plan it out. Not something that should be planned. That's what this summer should have been about. Lack of plans. But we planned quite a bit and that turned out ok. . mostly. Now that I think about it, it's more empty again than sick. Just when I thought that I had gotten rid of it. I suppose I deserve that for expecting it. And... that. I think I will officially be avoiding loud places, or learn to speak up / talk louder. Hmmm. Loud places and large groups. When combined it's a deadly combination. For me. I suppose I'll always be shy in that sense. And another, but that one's more obvious. I think I might have wasted all my wishes. On little things that didn't matter and would have happened anyway (but didn't because it was jynxed.. yeah that makes sense). Ah yes, the overthinking has kicked in. I'm too tired to deal with it because it'll mean no sleep. : / lovely. I suppose I'll get a headstart on the nonsleep. These dreams aren't helping either. AT all. : ). But I won't get into that.

until later.