not convinced

'If you wait too long for the perfect moment, the perfect moment will pass you by". Ah... fortune cookies. I'll never listen to them. I'd like to meet the person in charge of coming up with those 'clever' and 'thoughtful' phrases. The ones that make people even more paranoid than usual because they now have a 'lucky day' approaching or will soon be meeting a 'suspicious stranger'. If Q.W.Y.L didn't work... (which is probably a very, VERY good thing) then why would a fortune cookie work? I believe in signs, but not the extremely obvious ones that are hidden inside 'cookies' (they're only fun to break open anyway). For a while, I was convinced that the random series of letters on the wallpaper in my bathroom meant something. I won't say what though, because that falls under the category of.. embarassing. And dreams. I wrote down a few, 6 or so years ago and it still creeps me out that they're slowly coming true. Speaking of childhood dreams coming true... I saw Blink last night. That made my life, well, almost. I was smiling the whole time. And for the first time, I didn't lose my voice. . probably because of shitty seats. I was told that I was really lucky to be in the red section and that they were great seats. I have eyes. They sucked. I got a straight view, but of tiny little Tom, Mark and Travis. I think that this picture says it all. The light blue thing being the stage and the very,very bottom of the picture being my seat... Lovely. What's that? The big empty space in the center? Ah... The pit. I hate them. All 4000-5000 of them. I'll get my pit. In a few weeks. And I'll enjoy it's tinyness. The comfort of 400-500 people. Much better. I think. They locked me in office today, where my mind was free to wander.. Not a good thing. In that box with no distractions, the worst thoughts cross my mind. Mmm.... back there tomorrow. Can't wait.

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until later.