Repetition.

Everything hit at once. Everything that I was happily living without. Everything that I worked so hard to get rid of. To let go. Obviously didn't go very far. The internal shivers are back. The ones that show up despite layers of warmth. The ones linked to trauma. And everything else nicely sealed in that envelope. Or so I thought. Welcome back internal tremors. The dizzy swirling turns are back. Taking over. Planting its stubborn instructions in my head. My head that insists on spinning. My head that wants to twirl around leaving my body behind. Motionless. Welcome back dizzy swirls. Make yourselves at home.