Twice

It was a good attempt at least. One of the best ones this time i must say. I'm not quite sure what happened but I think that distractions may have something to do with it. Just a little. Something strange is going on in this mind of mine. It seems to happen when I can't help it and destroys all other thoughts. Only. It won't go away. Temporarily. But now I can't figure out how to get rid of it. Since it was obviously not properly...disposed of. Scowl. On to Plan B.. Once i figure out exactly what that is. It will be a brilliant plan. That I'm certain of. But. I won't end up thinking of one because that never seems to work. This time, just as with 'Plan A', I will let them form. I'm not helping. I won't influence this anymore than i need to. Which shouldn't be any at all. Because usually when I come up with plans, they end up being ridiculous and impossible. For example, a certain 'bucket'. Failed miserably and I spent the whole time making excuses and exceptions. Plans don't work that way. There can't be any cheating here. I wonder how that will work out this time. And there also can't be any consultations. Because.. it tends to be biased. ALL the time. My own opinion didn't seem to matter with 'Plan A'. Even though my own was quite confusing. I never know what i want, although i often claim that i do. Well now! Now things will change. There will still be the smiles and nods but they don't understand it. Not one bit. Mostly because I leave out everything. Anything and anything that could be more/ too specific. Works better that way. Just enough to explain. A little bit. I'll delay 'B' for a while. Otherwise it would fail no matter what. Wouldn't follow it. Temporary though. I think. Actually... I wish it was. Anyway, enough about that. .It turns out that I'm giving capitals a chance. Don't really like them... but it seems like they needed some attention. I probably won't stick to it, so don't get your hopes up. This definately does not mean that I will be getting rid of my fragmented sentences. They're here to stay. I'm not filtering out thoughts. Well...actually... I am. Cue the vagueness. It had to make an appearance some time or another.

break from capitals.

thoughts?
1. hot chocolate tastes horrible without milk. but there's no more here.
2. it looks like strangers judge too much, but i'm not sure that they do. if only they knew that. maybe it would be easier, with less glares.
3. i check the weather. quite often. but it's been wrong. every time i've checked it with hopes of it being nice out, it's been wrong and turned out somewhat nice. they're allowed to be wrong. and no one seems to mind.
4. am i really supposed to show more emotion to a cashier? i don't think so. maybe later, but i didn't have a reason to. it didn't surprise me as much as was expected.
5. it's more 'this time' now. at least that part of 'Plan A' worked. that's pretty much the only part that did. well.. i can't say that. 47%. i'll stick with that. not bad for a failed plan. the other half (53? ok not quite half) won't be yet. not ready for that. i don't think. i should be. but exceptions and expectations have ruined that. oh well. i shall deal. goodnight.

until later.