Well... it's all over. School. Stage. All done. Now I'm supposed to be free. Left with my own thoughts. Left to drown in them. How lovely. I was dreading it. At least the 5 year olds were a distraction. Now.. the Christmas show is over. My distractions are slowly disappearing. Slowly until I'm stuck facing what's really bothering me. What I've hidden away. Tucked under the covers. I'd rather not have that happen. Not right now. Not like this. Well. Too late for wishing. It happened quickly enough. Almost immediately. An instant death to my happy thoughts. Mmmm.... At least I didn't have to wait for it. At least I still have scowly faces. Those brighten my day. Oddly enough. Well, only when they end in smiles. Those are my favorite. Those are limited. Those are yours.
Mmmm.. Sims 3 is a pretty good distraction. But. It leaves me wondering. It makes me stop and ask myself why I bother continuing. Continue controlling their lives. Their every move. When I'm stuck asking myself what the point of their lives is. Their lifelong goals are accomplished. What's left? Wants and needs I suppose. Those will last forever. For as long as they live. Is that what we're living for too? Wants and needs. Just to accomplish those? Just.. wondering.
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