Fo-ie-ve-ty

What just happened? The quiet plan. The quiet plan never works. Never. It's never planned either. Actually, the complete opposite is planned, but the quiet plan takes over as it gets closer to the end. Usually... This means regrets. Like the last time. Only, there's no second chance because it was the real end. Nothing could come after this end. Then why the quiet plan? I guess I'll never know. I have no idea why fears decide to take over. I have learned to associate them with the colour red. Because of that day. The day that I can never get back. When does the learning process happen? The quiet plan keeps repeating. Why is there no learning from mistakes. The situations become so similar, but the realization only comes after. It's too late. Can't get them back. Even if I tried.