Terrification

Once again, the fears have returned. So much for my new year's resolution to be less afraid of everything, try new things and be less paranoid. Hmmm... Who knows what will happen now. I don't want to be afraid. Not of this. Not of the unknown. I just don't want to picture it. Death. Ughh.... Following me everywhere since childhood. Lovely, lovely. But. Only at night. Which makes complete sense because death only happens at night...riiiight. It's not fair either. I was told that you can get over a fear by facing it. So for my irrational (ridiculous-paranoid-screaming) fear of spiders, I should face it by dealing with them in a calm way and picking one up in my hand... Ummm... I'll pass. So basically, to face my fear of death, I have to experience death? Mmmm I can feel my fear disappearing already. . .