The new now.

Switch

Off. 

Off and Down.

Off, Down and Under. 
Off, Down, Under and Out. 

This time. This time we've gone a little too far. Too far apart to ever connect. To ever reconnect. Build the trust we once had. We've lost our chances. Spread out too much. Too much to be anything but off. Just a little off. From what was expected. From what was planned. Speculated. Even more. Any more, and we'll be down. Down from our step. Our step up from the world. From who we thought we were. Only. We never really were. Anything but ordinary. Hiding beneath your covers. Under layers of truth. Buried deep. Too deep to be found out. In too deep to be allowed out. To be figured out. To be left out. Kicked out. Pushed out. Out into the current state where I will remain off. 

Most Problematic Dreams

I can't sleep until it's over. Until the words make their escape. Out and over. Over and out of my mind. Out of my mind. Only you forced your way in. Balancing the two. Breaking in two. Two of which should never be. Only. They will always be. There will always be. Room for your words. The ones fighting. Struggling. Trying to see the light. The positives. The... Anything other than you. No. That can't be right. I must have missed. You holding on. Onto something. You're onto something. A plan. A way to stay alive. Remain in power. Power that can't be stolen. Only transferred. Transferred onto me. The hero. Always waiting. Waiting for that shining moment. To shine. To stutter. To hold on. To miss. Miss my chance. my chance to change. To break apart. To break free from the source. The source of constance. Constant control. Mixing up my butterflies. Keeping me awake. Keeping me from sleep. Sleep that won't. Sleep that can't. Until it's over.